Al Fatihah for My Late Mom

Mommy

Mommy, I want you to know that I love you so much!
I miss you mom! I really miss you. May Allah bless you always.

Al- Fatihah.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I dun know how to start. It’s another gol and gincu series I just watched. Jerangkung Dalam Almari. What you have on mind? Backstabber. Liers. Gunting dalam lipatan. Bla blab la. Hate them. To think of it, I had an experience. Im not saying that I’m too good to be a friend. But, hey, I make friends with my heart. Love them, care for them. And what SHE does? She backstabbed me! Telling rumors that.. God, scares you off! I don’t know what ive done that have hurt her, or make her felt uneasy. I just don’t know y. was there things ive said offended her? Was there any of my acts annoyed her? I don’t know. But, it there were, backstabbing me wasn’t the right way. She could just hv tell me. Tell me what n where ive done wrong. Not hurting me in such a way that now I hate her so much that I don’t even want to look at her. Nor know about anything about her. Life must go on mustn’t i? last year, I heard that she got cancer. Is it true? Only God knows. But if she is, I felt sorry for her. May she heal soon? She used to be a good friend of mine. But after the incident, we grew apart. I tried to contact her a few times, she ignored my smses. What else could I do? hey, i was the one victimized, yet I still want to get everything back on track. But, hey girl, wherever you are, n whatever u be doing, I wish u the best of luck. I need u to know that, what past is past. Let it go with the wind. I no more hate you. I miss you to be my friend.

Reviewing the Past

It's Friday. It's been a great week. We had projects ahead of us. Counting on the Police and Fire department involvement. Hopefully everything's gonna be ok. Doing projects with the school must be fun and exciting!! Can't wait to have the project on. Go back to school reminds me of my schooling age. It was lotsa fun then! i was in the band. me and my bro had so much fun playing with musical instruments. Not forgetting i was chosen to be the leader for the national day march. it was historical. it was great!!

Gol & Gincu

I dunno what attracts me to this series. I just love to watch this!!! Uve got no idea how much I’m addicted to this show.. but once for all, I really like this fazura girl! Yeahh,, I know.. newspaper said she wasn’t that sweet and lovely, but who cares! I still lurrrvvveee her anyway! Lurve her look, lurve her long hair, lurve her clothes, lurve the way she talks, kinda in a bitchy and gedik way, but, hey, it’s cute! I just loveee her so much!! and by the way, she loves pink too!! Ha Ha!
I love the way they handle their friendships. Like Putri and Mia. Putri casted by Fazura and Mia casted by this girl, urm.. who,, I cant tink of her name. let u know next time. So, continue with the story, I just admire the way they manage their frenship. Go shopping together, share things together, not just some happy stuffs, but inside out. Yknow, all the sad things, all the downers they had, they shared almost everything! Well, maybe it’s just done in the show but not in the reality.but I wished I could have that kind of fship. I missed a lot of my frens. Especially boboi, and rozi. They’r the bestest fren I ever had. But everything has changed. We’re sooo not close just like we were during school times. Maybe it’s about time. About how much we’re so apart from each other. After form 5, all of us had our own route to go. I went to matrikulasi, they went to college together. Slower, things changed. They’re getting closer and I’m getting away. We met up when I was back home.. but, everything was just not the same. 3yrs in UKM even made us tear apart. They all pun got new frens. Uh huhh.. wut do do? Life must go on. Well, lets forget about it.. It’s not like the world gonna end or sumtin,this world still have zillions of people inside right?

one saturday at home

I cant stop writing. I haven’t got out from the house since I got back from work. no newspaper, no magazines, no nothing. I cooked my own lunch and after that I cleaned the fridge. It’s not quite in a good shape. Need a little bit of cleaning. Ive done that too.. I spent the whole evening watching tv and movies.. it’s like a dvd marathon. After I watched Bridget Jones – The Edge of Reason, then sambung pulak tgk Aquamarine. Seems like today is the day of dvd.. but still, I had a great day staying at home. As how much I’m so happy to see the house is shiny, clean and it just make everything seen perfect. I love to live in a place like this. Always clean and clean. I wonder wut’s it’s like when I get married. Can I be as hardworking as I did today? Doing the house chores and everything? Hurm, still far to think about it huh? But, I luv the fact that I must think about the future starting from now. It’s wat we plan today that make us who we are in future? Right? Well not all can get what they planned and
desired, but at least, I gave it a thought..

*A Fish Head Tale*

I was supposed to update this blog last Monday. But never got the chance to do so. So, here it goes...

On 26th June, I went to visit bsm and to do a trial on a new color. The bad part was, the trial failed. I thought everything’s gonna be ok, but it didn’t turn out like what I was thinking. Tried twice, but it was still the same. F.A.I.L. after the entire tiring and long journey I had. But, wut’s d big deal anyway? We’ll be working on it... this time round; hopefully good luck will be with us. *hope so*

I had fish head curry for lunch. Honestly, I never had eaten fish head before. I was once told that fish head wasn’t good for the brain, it could ruin the memory, bla bla bla bla bla bla… but it’s my 1st time, and for all these years, I thought it tasted different from the other parts of the fish, but it’s just the same... Duhhh??!! Why people are so obsessed with it? It’s just the same. In fact, I dun think the curry taste any better than any mamak curry fish or chicken or wutever. Except for the money you spend on it. Hell, it cost much much more! Geezzz… oh well, I’m just being negative thinking right here. Just bcoz I’m not into it. But, dun get me wrong. This is Malaysia, why you have the rights when you can’t say anything? It’s a democratic nation ok...this is just what I think. J

I really miss all the times I had back home. My bed, my new bed, dad just bought it for me. One whole set with the matched wardrobe, and side tables, not forgetting the dressing table which I longed wish for. Finally, I got it! Thanx to dad! U’r fabulous dad!! Lurve you sooo much!! i love everything dad bought me. Once, dad got me a brand new Garfield watch when I was in secondary school. I was in form 1 then. I was thrilled, surprised, never thought dad wud buy me something so precious, so bad I lost it. I didn’t really lose it, someone or somebody took it. If I knew who had stole my Garfield watch, I’ll choke him/her to death! I’m serious!! I remember I even had a fever for the surprise.
Dad, I miss you. Hope to see you soon for Raya. Cant wait to meet you!!

a story of loneliness

starving.. i'm starving to death now.. but, i cant take my eyes off the computer.. i've got no guts to pull myself away from where i'm sitting now.. but my stomach can't stop growling.. both my hands are now shivvering.. erkkk.. again, my stomach growling.. i hv no idea wut for lunch today. ude still bz with her work. izmel is still in Mekah. i'm totally on my own now. dad is far away across the south china sea.. adik is doing his dip in kk. my old frens everywhere.. i dunno wut are their progress.. *sigh* i'm alone now.. i miss my frens, my family..
i really really miss them so muchhh