Emptiness Inside

i feel some kind of emptiness inside of me. i feel lonely.


i feel like i missed something. something that could not be retrieved by time. that something kind of feeling suddenly reminding me back of the past. the past where SHE is still around. when i could still smell HER. when i could still call HER name. the moment that i could still run to HER. hug HER. kiss HER. telling HER all the jokes i know. see HER laugh. see HER smile. i know i must go on without HER. i know it's been 3 years that SHE left me. us. i know. but i can't stop missing HER. i can't stop thinking about HER. how my world would be if SHE's still around. astaghfirullah..

ya Allah, bless HER ya Allah.

Al-Fatihah.

::life is so fun & fantastic::

the wedding fever is coming to town! this week alone there'll be 2 wedding in a row!that's what i know. then there'll be another one next week..

1st gonna be my ex-roomate back at the ukm time. Congrats dear darl Sue!! u're gonna be in my team now! welcome to the wifey club! but hun, sorry i cant make it to your wedding day.. wish u all the happiness in the whole wide world okay! be dead gorgeous on ur wedding day!!

next week gonna be Sis Chain turn pulak. huhu.. cant wait to see her in her wedding dress!! it's been 3 years that we're apart. & now, she's going to wed!! oh boy.. how i miss her so much!! she's the one who shared my tears & laughters throughout the college years. but even so, we didnt really make contact of each other after the college. she's into lecturing now - your dream really come true sis! praise to you! (Aza!!!)

got a surprise phone call from my junior today. seriously said. i AM Surprise. she just called up out of the blue & asking me to hangout with her this weekend. i said yes of course! it's good to catch up on old frens. there's more that meet the eyes.

a fren from back home flew to kl today. n m going to meet her on monday!! phew! sounds a very full schedule weekend. lucky it's public holiday on Monday. i'll have everything sorted out & will meet all of my frens! woho!!

killing time part 2

How did you feel when you woke up today?
- no feeling. sleepy as always.

Would you ever donate blood?
- yes i do. in fact, hv donated a few times.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
- yes.. i dooo

What are you thinking about right now?
- going back?

Do you wish someone was with you right now?
- i wish.

What time did you go to sleep last night?
- 11.38pm

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
- from forever 21 bought by my mother in law

Is someone on your mind right now?
- yes, my hubby.

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- not to that extent.

Who were you with last night?
- hubby darling

If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
- married. & lets be friends!

Do you want someone you can't have?
- no. i have someone that i can have. i have him indeed.

Where were you at 2:02am this morning?
- sleeping. as always.

What were you doing at 7:00am?
- sleeping while my brother driving me to work

Last voice you heard before you went to bed?
- korean movie.. araso!!

First thing you ate today?
- fitness cereal

Do you think you are an argumentative person?
- oh yes!

Has this week been good?
- definitely!

Have you ever had a difficult relationship?
- yes i do..

Was yesterday better than today?
- yesterday better, as i'm relaxing at home. today is Monday people!

Are you happy right now?
- yes, i am!

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
- i am in a relationship

Who knows you better than you know yourself?
- no idea. my hubby?

What are you doing tonight?
- sleeping..

Are you excited for the future?
- yes.. i wanna be pregnant..

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
- ahah..

Are you taller than 5'5"?
- nope.

What were you doing at 9 this morning?
- safety session.

Can you admit when you're wrong?
- i always admit things ive done wrong.

Do you think you would be a good wife/husband?
- yes i do. & i'm trying to..

Everything happens for a reason?
- definitely. Allah knows what best for the ummat

Do you have any pets?
- personally no. my hubby does!

What color shirt are you wearing?
- turquoise

Do you enjoy sleeping late?
- no. i'm a sleepy head

What was the last thing you dreamed about?
- no dream last nite for me

What's your favorite day of the week?
- friday & saturday!

What's your least favorite color?
- no idea

Have you ever caught a butterfly?
- yes.. back then in cameron.

hujan

hari ni hujan. hujan turun dengan lebatnya ketika aku mencuci pinggan & mangkuk di dapur.

hari ni hujan. aku suka dengar bunyi titisan air hujan.

bila hari hujan, cuaca menjadi sejuk.

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forgive me for my mental disorder. i'm facing one right now.

Sales, Sales & More Sales

i wanna go. but i'm so broke. besides, it's Thursday, & it's today. Thursdays are my busy days. maybe i can just go browsing only? that's if i could make it early today. huhu (my minds starts ticking!! woohooo!!)

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Killing Time

Where were you doing at 5:00 AM this
morning?
# sleeping

What was the first thing you thought
this morning?
# things to settled up at work

What did you do last night?
# watching korean dvd

What do you hope to do this weekend?
# attend hubby's friend wedding, my friend's open house, & meeting up with the familia!

What song are you listening to?
# none

What were you doing at 7 a.m.
# driving to work

What were you doing yesterday
afternoon
# working and working

Are there any previous relationships you wish could have lasted longer?
# yes. my first love - with my hubby! regret that i quit the relationship so soon without giving him chance to prove to me. thank God, ada jodoh dgnnya, we're married now!! Ameen.

What was the reason you last cried?
# too angry !!


Have you ever cried while in the shower?
# sometimes.. i do..

When was the last time you were
given roses?
# hm.. cant remember well..

Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?
# sometimes

What’s the closest pink thing to you?
# my pencil

Why did you stop liking the last person you liked?
# cant mix me well? pretender? hipocrit? hate those attitude!

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
# lipton ice tea

Are you taller than your mum ?
# yes

Are you an emotional person ?
# depends

Has anyone ever spread a rumor about you ?
# i dont wanna know

Who's your last text from?
# LOVE

Do you think someone loves you ?
# yup!!

Do you delete people off of Friendster?
# i do! sorry peeps!

Do you believe that you can change for someone?
# i cant. i love myself

Do you like surprises?
# who doesnt???!

Do you think people have any misconceptions about you?
# ntah .. should i really know?

What is your relationship status?
# happily married!

Do you have any piercings?
# yes

What were you doing at midnight last night?
# watching korean dvd!

What'S the recent thing you regret?
# tido lambat! sbb now ngantuk giler!

Selamat Hari Raya 2008

I hope it's not too late to wish everyone a Happy Eid 2008. Forgive me for all my wrong doings. for all the things i've said that touched you. if i ever hurt you in any way, please, forgive me ya. *wink wink* May Allah bless us all! Ameen..

Life so Fragile now..

dalam kemeriahan umat Islam meraikan Syawal, dalam tawa riang muslimin & muslimat menempuh hari kemenangan, familyku dikejutkan dengan berita pemergian kakak saudara, sungguhpun aku tidak begitu rapat dgn allahyarhamah, pemergiannya tetap dirasai. tiba tiba sahaja aku terkenangkan semua saat yg pernah kami lalui bersama ketika aku masih lagi belajar d matrik kik. walaupun tidak begitu byk, namun masih lagi teringat-ingat di fikiranku. mudah-mudahan rohnya dicucuri rahmat. Al-fatihah.

home sick

i miss home so much! 6days 5nights was merely just a blink in the eye. kejap gila rasa berada d rumah..
i miss my dad's home made ikan kering & ikan masak kuning!! his the best cook okay..
i miss my dad's voice.. miss his laughters.. miss his everything!!

ultimately, i miss everything about my home!!

a lot of things happened back there.. will post soon!!


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i thank Allah for all the happiness i have all these while.. Syukur kepadaMu ya Allah.. ameen..

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